I CAN do this.. *deep breath*

Today was our first day on WW ..

This morning went really REALLY well - until about noon. I started getting hungry and frustrated..

I then remembered there IS a reason for this , a goal and a dream to be healthy..

I want this SO bad..

I'm just afraid to fail.. again.

Believe

Visualize this thing you want. See it, feel it, believe in it. Make your mental blueprint and begin. - Robert Collier

Not only can I see it - I CAN feel it and I believe in it.

The "It" is being successful this time on losing my weight and becoming healthy. I not only want to do this for myself but for my family as well.. I WILL DO IT!

I have not struggled with my weight my entire life - in fact it has been just the last few years that my weight has been out of control. Seriously out of control. I partially feel that it's from grief and the loss of our son. I am such an emotional eater. When I am sad - I grab for whatever there is.. even if I am not hungry. It's now become such a habit.

I know that my son loves me no matter what. However, I want to be able to join in on hikes, jog with my son and run and play soccer with my niece and nephews. I do my son a disservice. I am such a poor example to him. Thankfully he has not picked up my eating habits.. and that his metabolism is high. He's so athletic.. I want to be able to join him in the activities he loves to do.

My husband loves me.. Skinny or overweight. I know that down deep though he would like to see me lose this weight. He never pushes me or puts me down - just simple suggestions here and there.. I want to do this for him, to make him proud of me and my accomplishment.

Socially and professionally my weight has an impact as well. I am READY for a change..


I am 38 years old, 244 lbs and a size 22/24..

And that? Is the first time I've EVER shared that. I'm gonna go faint now! ;)